This sweet boy melts my heart. He has shown me love and how to love. He protects and provides for me. He is my best friend. We are complete goofballs when we’re together. I would give anything for him. I admire his strength and hard work. He keeps me accountable to who I know I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. He’s taught me so much. I never have felt anything like I’ve felt with him. I never knew these emotions existed. I miss him like crazy. I love this sweet boy. I feel like a love sick puppy dog.

This sweet boy melts my heart. He has shown me love and how to love. He protects and provides for me. He is my best friend. We are complete goofballs when we’re together. I would give anything for him. I admire his strength and hard work. He keeps me accountable to who I know I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing. He’s taught me so much. I never have felt anything like I’ve felt with him. I never knew these emotions existed. I miss him like crazy. I love this sweet boy. I feel like a love sick puppy dog.

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I hate leaving this place. I feel closer to God when I’m here. I feel His presence while taking in the vast beautiful sky and when hearing the ocean’s constant thunder. As I look down the length of the beach I suddenly start to feel so small and God seems so big. For some reason I hear His voice more than normal here. I have the opportunity to open my mind and ponder things I usually don’t ponder. This week was too fast. I could easily stay for another week. I shared countless laughs with my family that are something I will cherish for many years to come. Even though the whole family wasn’t there, I’m so blessed to have them in my life and I love them more than words could ever express.

This summer I prayed that I would experience God in a way I have never experienced Him before. Sometimes we might not understand why something happens to us or why someone acts in a certain way or has to deal with something not particularly pleasing, but no matter what, God is always working. I am confident in this through my own experience, and I can only pray that God will do the same work in the life of someone I love so dearly. He is the Author and the Finisher, and that’s what I am standing on during this season of my life. God’s not finished yet and He sure didn’t bring us this far and allow us to experience all that we have experienced to just abandon us now. He’s always working. He is always relevant. He hears every prayer, which makes me feel loved. I believe the only real hope anybody could have while on the earth is hope that is experienced with God. Without that hope there isn’t anything worth living for in the world, noting can sustain like the way God sustains. It’s obvious. Even our own nation could be faced with hell and at the end of the day people are singing “God Bless America.” God is Hope, if only everyone could understand the power of that statement.

People need God. It is my duty to share His love wherever I can. To truly “go into every man’s world” like my university always says. I believe the person who actually dares to go there and be the stone in the middle of the stream is the one who is really going to make a difference in this world. Having Godly influences and being in a good atmosphere is great piece of this pie, but if we hide in the church all the time, we’re only separating ourselves from the people who need the truth that we know. My methods of sharing what I believe is not in anyway something I just lay on people the first time I meet them. Like I said a couple of posts ago, I think the way for people to open up with you and respect what you have to say is by first respecting them. I know God’s given me a gift of listening. I couldn’t tell you what I do because frankly I don’t know what I do, but people have found it easy to open up to me. I know this is a gift because it’s not something I do. I can’t explain it. I want to focus on being a pure vessel for God to flow through me though. I don’t want to get distracted. I feel like I have grown tremendously within this past year, and am currently going through a growing phase during this season. I’m looking ahead and I like what I see. I just pray that God will open and close doors for me. He is first, I am second.

Another thing I pondered this week was the fact of how God never changes and He answers every prayer. Our concerns are really His concerns. And sometimes what we might think is the answer to our prayer isn’t what He had in mind. We expect Him to do something and He ends up doing something far better than anything we ever expected. He answered my prayer, and gave me something far better than what I thought I was going to get, praise God. An example of this has resulted in me falling in love with an incredible guy. My mind is blown. He saw my desire and my heart and gave me something better than what I had for myself. I never have loved someone the way that I love him. I am learning so much and I’m loving every second of it. It gives me so much joy just thinking about it. It blows my mind. I’m so grateful. God answers prayers folks, don’t get discouraged with current circumstances or be disappointed when something you pray doesn’t happen the way you thought it would. His plan is so much better, and I just got my dose of that recently.

I’m coming home now, time to put in some work this summer.